In the past few days, I've been walking on vacillating clouds of emotion---some of the people orbiting my life seem to be leaving it--either by their choice, or mine. These events have left me with an array of feelings---sadness, uncertainty, even some brief moments of anger.
So many questions.... and with them, judgment -- judgment about what should've been, and why -- and resistance; resistance to "allow" things to bend and flow as they may -- and sadness; sadness about what may come, or not come, and why it can't just be the way it's supposed to be.
Needless to say, all this fluctuation has interrupted my stillness and ease, not to mention, my commitment to experiencing my life more congruently.
But.....where there's UNrest, there is rest......
This morning, I took a moment to be "still" -- and I was reminded that the commitments we make to ourselves are tools -- tools we use to get to a different place. I decided to revisit my recent commitment to congruence -- What was it about my life that prompted me to commit to a more congruent way? What "place" was I trying to get to?
Aaaah. I was trying to get to a place of balance. A place where I needn't try to ward off and resist anything that arrives without an invitation. A place where my happiness does not depend so much on events that are outside my say.
Here are five key points that kept ringing back to me......Maybe one of them will ring true with you.
1. My emotion is like my temperature - it is "there" -- as it should be. But my emotion is not defined by my ego, and it does not need to be defined by my ego. My emotion -- and my ego will both continue to exist -- but they will do so on two different planes.
2. Emotion is always. But it does not "always" require immediate action or re-action. I am perfectly capable of setting aside any impulse to over react. Instead, I will take time to ponder my words and my feelings, and generate a response borne from spirit, not ego.
3. I am grateful for what my emotion brings to me…mostly it feels nice, but there are times when it does not. I cannot always randomly dismiss my emotion, but I will consciously choose when and whether I share it, or keep it to myself.
4. Spirit is sensible and spirit is smart. Ego is not. When our ego takes us over, it leaves us with little control of our words and our behavior. It reduces us to something we're not. Spirit is far more powerful than ego; and true spirit will always get a better result. My spirit will direct the outcome of my emotions and my emotional interactions. My ego need not be present.
5. Everyone is comprised of spirit, emotion, and ego, as am I. Spirit is pure....it does not compete; and emotion is innocent, so it does not need to compete. It is only ego that feels a need to "win." Sadly, it has been my experience that when my ego wins, a lot of other things end up losing. So…In my life, I will accomplish, I will achieve, I will succeed. I'll leave the winning to those who need to win.
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